hijo - focus

i am alone, yet He is with me.
Though i am warm, i wait to sweat.
i am chained and connected.
i am tagged.
i am owned.
i kneel to worship the entity that is Us.
The entirety of Us, which needs to be fed and nourished.
With honor and dignity, the man, my Man, and i will be One.
i eat of the apple - the skin waxy and rugged, the flesh moist and firm.
i taste the tartness sliding down my throat.
Its energy taken from the earth now providing fuel for my body.
i anxiously wait for night to quietly fall so i may be comforted in the security of complete darkness.
A single candle burning to light the path to, and for, Us.
A light to acknowledge Our presence and energy in a darkness, where black is darker than shadows and the silent shadows cannot be seen.
i will cleanse my body with the warm fluids from my body.
It it is time.
i will anoint and prepare myself for Him.
i wait to touch and feel my hole where the darkness leads to the path of my soul.
Deep inside, beyond the flesh, where He's been before...where He's probed and stretched my mind. This is a portal i willing give to Him.
This is where We connect - idle at times, and feverish more often.
He's deposited himself here and i have taken Him completely.
As it was then, it still is now, i feel His power within me.
A power that strengths the growth within the cells of my body, heart and blood.
i do not grovel.
i do not beg because He knows.
i crave for more...deeper, longer, darker, harder, further and farther.
It is as it shall be.
my body and soul are for Him.