It amazes me when i feel i have given everything i have, to only find i have even more to give. It comes from my Sir's natural power to elicit deep dark visions i have only played out alone in my head. i am awestruck when i experience scenes with my Sir that i have craved when alone touching myself. i have not disclosed all of my desires.
But He knows.
As i laid on my back on His bed, blindfolded, my left arm and left leg spread and tied - secured to the bed posts, my chest harness buckled, my collar strapped around my neck, a leather band firmly cinched around my cock and balls...He asked me how i felt. i couldn't find the words, or a single word, fast enough to describe the emotions or physical and mental thoughts that gripped my body and mind.
He then demanded to know.
He sternly asked me again how i felt.
i told Him i felt...
wanted.
complete.
whole.
masculine.
Yes, i realized as His mouth roamed my body, licking me, occasionally making me flinch with intense pleasure, chewing on my inner thighs, and grabbing my balls, i indeed felt like a man. He knew this is where i wanted to be. He's known for a long time i have wanted to be His.
His boy.
Yet, i finally felt like a man.
Through my submission, i wasn't belittled or humiliated. Through His domination, i was lifted and brought to a higher place - feeling secure with my submission, making me feel confident with myself. i knew this was right. No doubts. This was where i belonged.
To have this Man next to me, controlling me on so many levels, i finally felt accepted as a man. Of course, the more i gave, the more he took and the more i felt compelled to give.
At times it's sensuous and passionate.
At times it's direct and demanding.
At times, it's smooth like polished glass.
At times it's rough.
At times it's raw, dirty, and jagged with an edge.
But no matter how Our time spent together is,
i know i am here with a purpose to give Him even more.
